November 29, 2013 § Leave a comment

I got my body fat measured and it was…30%! (The ideal for women would be 17%) 

I’ve long suspected that despite the so-called slim figure which has no changed much since I was in my teens (I THINK), I was made up of very much fat so well, that just confirms it and I need to do something about it so…


I’ve been trying out the no-carb diet which is supposed to last 2 weeks and on day 1 I am getting a bit depressed because 

1) It requires I eat lots of meat and fats, but I am not a meat person… so therefore bad at cooking and choosing meat too, evident from how tough the chicken I chose/cooked is

2) The mother asks if I want avocado milkshake and I have to say ‘no’

3) Yes… Even fruits are out 😦 Apples, bananas, orange, grapes…

4) I come across a video recipe on how to make pistachio ice-cream hmmmm 

5) I HAVE HUNGER PANGS AND NO APPETITE (if that sounds like a reasonable statement) 


On day 2, I am feeling listless and in no mood to cook horrendous tasting food. 

I decide there’s got to be a compromise and I can have a little carbs for my emotional well-being. No point being thin but sad. So I buy blueberries (low GI) and pure cream–luckily, pure cream is allowed as it’s high in fat. So there! My “blueberry ice-cream”! Seems like a piece of heaven 😀

Yay! What next! I can have hazelnut with cream, almond with cream, pistachios with cream 🙂 At this rate I don’t even feel like I’m on a no-carb diet ladeedum! If I lose weight, I might even be surprised :O

Then today (day 3) I got organic beef slices and apparently, no one (linked on the 1st page of google search) has figured out to cook that the no-carb + fuss-free way. After feeling a little sorry for myself, I came home and unleashed the inner artist in me and ooh I am happy with the way my beef tastes!

I cooked it with butter and sesame oil, then poured fish sauce and added black pepper. YUMMY 😀 

3 day verdict

I am more energetic (even when I try to get my afternoon nap, I can’t sleep…except on day 1 where I was mighty depressed) 

I am coming across food that I like! Seeing how I have “discovered” blueberry “ice-cream” and INVENTED (:D) butter w sesame oil w fish sauce beef 😀

I am honing the skills of preparing home-cooked food for consumption outside, which will totally come in handy when starting work again next year. This year my meals largely comprised of ban mian and super sweet tau huay. OK, yong tau fu too. 


Looking ahead…

Tmr I will be going for a conference with food provided and a wedding reception! I sure hope my home-cooked food is better because if not it will be quite tempting 







September 12, 2013 § Leave a comment

Oh, how long ago since I last wrote. 

Although writing is therapeutic. 

Inference: Either I haven’t been in need of therapy, or I have not had it despite needing it 

It is good that the break is here. Though short, it has allowed me to recognise what I have been doing–well, more like what I need to stop doing. Work-life balance is an art and I feel that I’m losing myself to work, which is bad because then I get grumpy. Even using this word feels like a euphenism. Horrible. Horrible might be the word. 

(Hmm..I think I still write like my 15-year-old self. Gahhh.)

I’ve been meeting up with friends this week for almost every day, a luxury when one is working. It has been good– to know that I am not alone in my struggles, to get out of my shell a bit and know that hello other people are also having issues so can I please stop wallowing in my own little pool of nonsense problems? 

Tuesday’s conversation topic was “We are so depressed”

We both had appointments but were too downtrodden to budge, so we just sat down and ate, and wallowed. This led A to laugh and remark philosophically, “Sometimes we know we have to do something but we just won’t do it.” I laughed too. I know, not very funny, but we were both tired. And when I am tired, I laugh at anything. There should be a study done on this phenomena. Maybe it’s our body’s coping mechanism. 

Wednesday’s conversation was about various things, such as the need for work-life balance and being realistic in what one could accomplish. K suggested that instead of aiming to make a difference, it is more realistic to make a dent, or to scratch the surface. Haha, I’m not in the mood to argue against this. Some resolutions forming in my mind– I need to do something, maybe rock-climbing or yoga. 

Wednesday I also sat in the adoration room for a good hour at least. I hardly talked to Him. I was just happy to do the ‘silent friend’ thing in which you just sit silently with a friend and enjoy his company, and the ‘sunshine’ thing– if you bask in Jesus’s light, you will change, although you don’t feel it. Didn’t the famous St Theresa even suggest it was alright to sleep while praying? 

Thursday’s (today’s) topic was on mean people. V was upset about a colleague who was being deliberately mean, and we were both wondering how people became mean, and how we could live the “love your enemies” thing. I suggested that mean people were really just very sad people, who felt they could trust no one but themselves. And she agreed saying that she thinks the colleague must expand a lot of energy being mean, and how tiring it was. We also talked about the difference between men and women, how men wanted respect and women wanted love. I still don’t get the respect thing. Isn’t it better to be loved despite yourself? And if this counts as a reason, God is love 🙂 Women have chosen the best thing by wanting love. 

My mental faculties are obviously in bimbo mode today. Good night! 









Grander plans

June 25, 2013 § Leave a comment

I ceased to love thinking, to seek knowledge about knowledge a few years ago. 

Not that I stopped to love it for what it is, for thinking is good in itself. But I stopped because it crippled me, it crippled me because every time I picked up a book on it reminded me of a painful episode in my life. 

Now the pain has ceased, but unfortunately the love for thinking has been put on hold so long. 

Sometimes I wonder about my posting, a position requiring me to think, to guide thinkers even. 

I didn’t want this. I wanted to be sent to a class of young children, to soak in their nonsense. How I love nonsense and laughing over silly things.

But perhaps God has other plans…and if I won’t sign up for the plans myself He’s going to force me into it. Heh. Looks like He has Grander Plans. I want The Good, but He intends The Great. 

Better equip me then God! 

February 21, 2013 § Leave a comment

I would want to come up with my own list one day. For now, I’m liking what I read here:

In the past, Ch…

February 16, 2013 § Leave a comment

In the past, Christians were persecuted by the Romans and would hold their rites in secret. They would sing softly to avoid being discovered. But now there are no Romans outside to catch you, so I want everyone to please sing loudly. –F.Ow

My 18 year old frivolous self

January 23, 2013 § Leave a comment

I’m looking through my JC stuff and remembering the person I was then. I think somewhere along the way I lost my zest for living and forgot who I am. And while my 18 year old self does not represent the whole of me, it’s an important part of who I am that I want to remember, because I felt much more alive then.

I was so frivolous then, but it’s part of being alive and happy and playful I guess? 😛 I took copious notes…not in lectures, but of the things that were happening.

I even have a dictionary+scrapbook, which has a record of the lingo I used then…

Look at all my acronyms!

EC: Eye Candy

Definition by 18 year old self: Refers to someone you like to look at and look out for to make life interesting but would not really want to get to know…because of what you may find out!!!

Comments by 24 year old self: This was fun but I think it’s not very moral to use people like that!


Definition by 18 year old self: Means many things– Prince Charming, Production and Cost (econs topic), Permutation and Combination and recently Perfect Cadence (Guitar concert theme). One of my favourite acronyms.

Comments by 24 year old self: It’s less relevant now but I think it still remains my favourite acronym!

Even key events featured in my dictionary…

VS Protest: Guys pinned VS badges on their sleeves and protested by their MSN nick. No, we don’t want to turn co-ed. I so agree…single sex schools rox!

I even have my notes from a brainstorm session on how to chase an unwanted P away, which included playing eerie music in the toilet. Umm, I guess my morals then were kind of questionable.

But seriously, I think I enjoyed myself 🙂




types of happiness

November 21, 2012 § Leave a comment

It is true that laughter comes easily. It is also true that I smile to myself quite often.

However, I have the inkling that this is just a superficial happiness.  This is crazy. Why am I complaining?

I know. There’s ‘this is really funny’ and ‘I am liked’ happiness. And there is ‘I am loved’ happiness. I need more of the latter, and I need to work on my prayer life.


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