June 25, 2013 § Leave a comment
I ceased to love thinking, to seek knowledge about knowledge a few years ago.
Not that I stopped to love it for what it is, for thinking is good in itself. But I stopped because it crippled me, it crippled me because every time I picked up a book on it reminded me of a painful episode in my life.
Now the pain has ceased, but unfortunately the love for thinking has been put on hold so long.
Sometimes I wonder about my posting, a position requiring me to think, to guide thinkers even.
I didn’t want this. I wanted to be sent to a class of young children, to soak in their nonsense. How I love nonsense and laughing over silly things.
But perhaps God has other plans…and if I won’t sign up for the plans myself He’s going to force me into it. Heh. Looks like He has Grander Plans. I want The Good, but He intends The Great.
Better equip me then God!